Apologizing

I’ve said I am sorry a million times, but it is never enough.
I don’t always mean it, but I say it.
I am sorry I am not all you want. I am sorry I make mistakes.
I am sorry I don’t think and believe the same as you.
I am sorry I am not who you thought you had made me.

I am my own person now. I am not apologizing for that.
I grew up and you missed it somehow.
I grew past thinking you could do no wrong.
I grew past wanting your approval of my life.
I am the me I always wanted to be, but you never see it.

I use to hope you were proud of me. Now, all I do is avoid your anger.
I use to crave your love. Now, I may never have it again.
I don’t know how to talk to you anymore.
And for that, I am truly sorry.

©2019 Nancy Lehmann

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